Lying to our Tools

This blog is ruining me.

Before this blog, I would go into strange moods. When those moods came over me, I'd think to myself 'uh oh. Here comes a mood. Best write something'. And then this vast vista of possibility washed over me. I could work on my novel. I would write a descriptive passage. I could set pen to paper and have everything that is sitting in my head come out in a horrible tangle and just like the look of the words on the page. I could rant and rave and write big words and write small words , or I could leap to my keyboard and just see how quickly I could churn out something, anything, that eased the sense of pressure.
Now, I get a strange mood. I immediately think of how I can exploit that mood and turn it into a blog post. I write a blog post. Sometimes, this mood goes away. Sometimes it doesn't and I have to go have a wank or something and wait till I pass out and troubled sleep erases the mood for me.
For those of you with delicate sensibilites, now is the time to navigate away from my blog. After much deliberation I have decided that this medium is as good as any other to express myself - but only if I stop lying and using it as merely a showcase for things I'm happy with. I'm not going to go on and on about what my blog is now because I don't feel like it. The only thing I'm going to to continue to do is to title my posts, because Future Me would like a frame of reference, my mind being a tidy sort of mind when it comes to text.
Other then that, I'm simply going to type whatever I feel is required to release the pressure in my head. No holds barred. That means I am going to talk about sex, probably in great detail. I am going to talk about my petty wants, needs and emotions (hatred and jealousy probably featuring most strongly). I am going to rave. I am going to not make sense. I am going to be pointlessly crude. And every now and then I'll continue to make something beautiful, as apparently I seem to be able to do.
If you think that the crassness is worth the risk, feel free to keep following this blog. The only way to access it is from my MSN or my Facebook - I'm not worried that I'm going to write something that will come back to bite me on the ass later, so I'm going to stop lying to this blog and I'm going to start writing what I need to write.

It's a nice sentiment, anyway. Here's hoping I can stick with it.