Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I could turn my gaze away from flickering machines.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I fell badly on my back and it broke into two.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if you were to tell me "I no longer care."
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if you were to take lies and make them true.

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I could turn my face away from the burning sun.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I left the house and hopped a train and never looked back.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if you were to marry my brother and become my lover.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if you were to pick up a kitchen knife and attack.

Do you ever lie awake at night and wonder?
Do you ever lie awake at night and blunder?
Do you ever lie awake at night with dappled shadows at the edge of sight,
Do you ever lie awake and take a flight of fancy?

Sometimes I wonder.