Right, so.
I make a habit of telling everyone (myself included) that I am comfortable in my own mind.
And a big part of that, so I hear, is venting.
Usually I do this in the confines of my own skull, or in the words of songs I sing.
But seeing as sometimes I feel the urge to write, I thought I would use this blog - which at times feels like shouting at the bottom of a well with nobody at the top of it - to shore up my emotional reserves. Type whatever the hell comes into your head, and you'll feel better, right?

I can feel it working already.

Where am I at now?
I'm over my failed relationship. Made my peace, let it go, etc etc. I feel better about the whole situation. I set out to have some fun, break some hearts.
There are currently three boys taking up the emotional horizon. One I had to turn down, the other I can't work up the courage to ask out, and the other is...well, is probably reading this right now and our situation can't be put into words - tis far beyond them and I won't despoil it by sharing it.
The POINT of this is that I'm being shown by all this attention that I am NOT a horrible, unloveable individual. And that's nice, isn't it? I mean everyone needs that from time to time, and if I can't have the...physical advantages of a relationship at the moment I can at least be comfortable in the knowledge that I am desireable.

Hrm. What else?
I dropped Maths as a subject. Big choice, I know, but it was melting my brain and I feel a lot better for it. I spend that lesson time now sitting in the hallways with my laptop writing out musings on the nature of truth and philosophical pieces about fruit. Go figure. Was utterly worth it.

Finally, I have never felt more removed from my fellow human beings than I have in the past week - it is as if I have been just passing through, an entity seperate from all that transpired around me. But unlike my past musings where this has depressed me, right now I can look at it and smile. I quite like feeling apart from people. I enjoy knowing deep in my bones that I move among people with the greatest of ease and feel very little for their concerns. It's somewhat of a nice feeling.

If you're reading this, you may as well not bother commenting on anything I've written as it was pretty much random thought trails typed only to give me certain release, not to provide you with any sort of insight. I'm suprised you stuck with it this long. Don't you have things to do?