Life Wreckers and Valuable Lessons

WARNING - ANOTHER SERIOUS POST ABOUT ISSUES IN MY LIFE. If you're here for WoW goodies, go away.

So.

My boyfriend (now known as Snuggles for ease of typing) hooked up with my ex-boyfriend (now known as Satan for ease of typing) on Monday. They met through someone who I thought was a close friend of mine (now known as Idiot for ease of typing.)

Satan kissed Snuggles, and Idiot made it happen.
It sounds a lot less serious when I put it like that.

Myself and Idiot have been having some friendship issues lately in which I made her cry repeatedly because I no longer thought we got along - clearly true. So, here we have the justifications for what went down, in full glory.

Satan: "You hurt Idiot, so I'm going to tear you a new one for fun. Also, you dumped me a long time ago and I'm still suffering from it emotionally, so I'm going to tear destructive holes in your life for as long as you're stupid enough to go on allowing me. By the way, me and Idiot are best friends, and she tells me all sorts of things about you. Having fun yet? I am."

Idiot: "Oh, oopsie, I guess I did sort of ruin your life, but I didn't mean to! I guess I didn't think that giving your current boyfriend's number to your evil ex would cause problems! But...we did have that fight, so I guess maybe I wanted you to suffer a little. But it's unfair that you're cross at me. Let's be friends still and we can do the same thing in a couple of months and scar you even more, shall we?"

Snuggles (and oh boy, this one hurts the most): "I got in touch with him because I never really loved you and needed to find a way to let you down without hurting you. I guess it sort of backfired, because I ended up completely fucking up your mind, but oh well, let's be friends still anyway, kay? I expect you can just turn off the way you were feeling like a light-switch. That's a good idea. Lets hang out some time, mates, yeah?"

I'm dealing with some very immature people here, aren't I? Or this is all my fault and I'm a terrible human being. I haven't decided.

Also, opening night of production was good, by that point I was enraged rather than depressed and channeled it well. The rest of the week should be fantastic. And by the time it's all over, the pain will have eased a lot, I hope.

I'm young, I'm attractive, and I'm on stage. Fuck everything else.

Moar pix

Production Week Pre-Post.

So I suppose before production week comes rolling around I should get some stuff onto the web while I have the chance.





Auriaya one-shot by new guild . Was very win. Gratz guys. <3

Erm. I had my birthday dinner, which was rather lovely. My aunt informed me that my boyfriend was a 'spunk'. I concur, I suppose.
There was much presents. I got some moniez, a laptop (!) a voodoo doll (!) and a giant Toblerone that is almost as tall as I am. I felt rather sick after attempting to devour the majority of it.

The party was ok, but someone threw up on my floor. Again. AGAIN. Sigh. /murder
Tomorrow I have rehearsals all day. Monday I have rehearsals all day. The rest of the week - classes and production. Pressure's on.
Oh, and I have 4 achievements left on my red proto-drake. And three assignments due. And I've probably failed maths for the term because I refuse to attend such a soul-destroying class. And here I am blogging! Madness!

Look! Up in the sky! It's mentally unstable man!

You know that place you can get in where you're in a perfect void, and nothing matters but you can't be sad about it because not even your sorrow is important?
The only thing there is is a slight appreciation of the void.
It's sort of like those dreams you have, when you realise that all you are is an amusing sequence of atoms that decided to get together and have a party, and eventually they are going to stop dancing and look around and wonder what to do next, and you won't be anymore.

Even better, the feeling that your very mind is on the edge of simply bursting into the far reaches of universal truth.
There is that, isn't there? Like you're on the cusp of something but there's no motivation to push yourself over the edge?
And simply contemplating the end of your existence doesn't invoke any particular feeling in you? Where you look around and examine your life without any emotion, and you see what you are, and you simply can't summon up the will to care for it?
Our emotions in this void are immaterial. So is our intellect.
All we are, all that we were, and all that we will be will eventually belong to the void.
And sometimes that knowledge possesses us, right? And all you can do is scrabble at the keys, fuelled by god only knows, trying to get your skewed and desperate thoughts onto the screen so you stop thinking them?
Wait.
Maybe it's just me.
Fuck.

I hope I'm insane, some days. I think, better that than this being all there is.

Guilty. D:

Horde/Alliance Barrier

I have never hated this as much as I do right now.

Let me explain it.
Shutdown came at 5 o'clock this afternoon. I'm serious. WTF BLIZZ, WTF.

Erm.
Anyway.
So I turned to that sanctuary of interest, the realm forums, and lo and behold, I had an @Liriael thread. Joy.
So one thing led to another and we all got on vent and had a jolly old time for...
*checks clock* THREE AND A HALF HOURS!
And that was just randoms talking about nothing at all. And three out of the eight were Horde players.

Now Blizz. I know in-game we can't understand one another, and on PvP servers the rivalry is stoked to fever pitch. But I am a carebear. And I'm so grumpy at the fact you have given me many tools in which to communicate with my enemies. Vent servers, the forums, emotes...the fact we can roll alts...

And yet I find myself separated from some truly AWESOME people because they no speaka de Common and I'm supposed to try and kill them. And they don't want to roll alts. And I can't leave Liri, and rerolling means we have the same problem but cross-faction....

Now, I know there is no way to fix this so that everyone is happy, but it steamed me a bit, because these people are so great to have around and we're just throwing stones across a void we can't cross. :(

WTB cross-race customization. I know it wouldn't work with Loremaster and so on and so much homogenization would be needed, but STILL.
<3
Liri.

ALL TICKBIRDS WILL PERISH!